Warning: This article contains discussion of suicide, which some readers may find distressing.
A woman has shared that she experienced glimpses of heaven and hell after attempting to take her own life as a teenager.
Tamara Laroux revealed that emotional trauma began to consume her after her parents separated. While she lived with her mother following the divorce, Laroux felt rejected when her father maintained contact only with her siblings.
The situation reached its peak when Laroux, at 15 years old, made the heartbreaking decision to end her life.
The teenager took her mother’s gun, aimed it at herself, and pulled the trigger—what followed was an event she believed to be a divine intervention.
In an interview with the Christian Broadcasting Network, Laroux shared that she had witnessed both heaven and hell that day.
“When I pulled that trigger… I knew my body was dying,” she recalled.
“I felt the blood rushing through my lungs. Death gripped my body. I became blind and deaf.”
“As my soul left my body, I began traveling faster than the speed of light.”
Laroux went on to describe the experience as her ‘falling’ into hell, describing it as an ‘explosion’ inside her body.
“It was so hideous and terrifying… there was no way to describe the level of pain that I was experiencing,” she said. “It was hell.”
Reflecting on her feelings in those moments, the author believed she had been transported to a place of “total torment” alongside a “sea of people” crying out in agony and fear.
“I remember looking at an individual, I knew everything about them,” she recalled.
“I knew every sin they committed. My knowledge about their life was full. I knew their thoughts and emotions.”
But Laroux’s near-death experience didn’t end there. She claimed that a giant hand lifted her from ‘hell’ and carried her to a heavenly place.
Describing the place as ‘exquisite’ and radiant, she explained: “There was an overwhelming sense of peace, joy and complete serenity.”
“The colours were so bright and refreshing… their very sight was rejuvenating and full of energy.”
Afterward, Laroux said she was returned to her body and rushed to the hospital for life-saving treatment. It was there she discovered that the bullet had missed her heart by about a quarter of an inch.
Since then, Laroux has been changed by her experience. She has embraced Christianity and authored her 2018 book, A Second Chance at Heaven, to share her journey with others.
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